louis
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Post by louis on Jul 6, 2009 19:21:43 GMT -5
Yeah....
Maybe i do too.... i just need to push myself to do it... im like a nomad just now... when i do go... i room the rooms never going to the same place twice in a row... but i will get therre...
thanks again.... hope the boards back on soon for you too
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Post by believe808 on Jul 6, 2009 19:26:03 GMT -5
Are you okay tonight Louis?
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louis
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Post by louis on Jul 6, 2009 19:33:28 GMT -5
Yeah.... im ok thanks....
Lots of stuff going through my head.... to be honest my life is pretty unmanagable now as it was drinking... only differece being is i can see it now...
But... i will sort it... always have nad will.... i wont drink though.... im happy that the urge to drinkis subsiding... am seeing my counselor in the morning...
I guess i just get sad and disappointed in myself that i wont let myself get back into meetings... cos i do try... i really do... i tink people i know think i dont try hard enough.... i dont know how to verbalise it.... i say i am going and then instantly i am findin an excuse not to go.... its like a panic comes over me.... and it gets worse each time i back out... i know the solution is to go and face it.... imm just scared i guess
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Post by believe808 on Jul 6, 2009 19:53:53 GMT -5
How about trying this Louis, my sponsor told me to do this when I was having kind of panic attacks. Breathe in Faith, Breathe out Fear. If you keep breathing when you are in a state of panic you can only concentrate of your breathe. So you kind of forget the panic attack. Just breathe in faith, breathe out fear. And say that when you take a breathe or release it. I use this for everything now. Whenever I am anxious over something, I breathe in faith, breathe out fear.
As to your life being pretty unmanageable right now, you wouldn't believe how my life is, I have said over and over that my life in sobriety is 100 times worse on the outside than it has ever been. The only good thing right now is I am sober, and being sober yes I see all the things going on and it does s*ck but I talk about it to other alcoholics, I post about it, I just don't keep it all to myself. You see I am an isolator by nature, ha ha, and I will just let the things build up and retreat deeper and deeper inside myself. That's why for me meetings are a blessing, because I am forced to get outside of myself and help someone else. It helps me to forget about what is going on in my own life. That's what its all about, by helping another you get out of yourself for that time and forget your own problems.
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louis
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Post by louis on Jul 6, 2009 20:10:13 GMT -5
Thanks....
I will give it a try.... i do my cbt exercises when i am having panics.... but there obviously not working with htis so will try your suggestion... cnat hurt can it!!!!
Thankyou again
be well
louis
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:18:52 GMT -5
I'm back, having trouble with data base errors in other forums, can't open anything. Don't know if its my computer or SR.
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:26:03 GMT -5
Well, if you come on today Ro, I posted this reply to you on other forum LIS, but I don't think it posted, cause when I hit post reply, database error came up and I haven't been able to get back on since.
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Post by astro on Jul 7, 2009 15:36:50 GMT -5
&^%$ database errors!  What the heck are we payin' for around here?  Oh, wait a sec, this is a free forum, right? ;D |
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:38:37 GMT -5
Hi Astro, I've been all by my self here for awhile, its pretty dead and lonely. Glad you're here.  |
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Post by astro on Jul 7, 2009 15:40:33 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]Maybe we could act like rock stars and trash this hotel room since there's nobody around to catch us[/glow]  |
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:41:46 GMT -5
Ha Ha okee dokie. I feel like I'm following you from one thread to the other, and back again. Lets go post on all the threads.
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:43:35 GMT -5
we need like a shout out on top of screen, so we can just IM each other instead of going back and forth to threads.
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Post by astro on Jul 7, 2009 15:43:58 GMT -5
We could tell bad jokes too............. If an alcoholic belches in the woods, and nobody's around to hear him/her, do they really make a sound?  |
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:48:13 GMT -5
are you waiting for an answer?
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:52:16 GMT -5
Astro, I'm gonna leave for awhile and go to a meeting. Have fun and don't do anything I wouldn't do. |
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Post by astro on Jul 7, 2009 15:52:31 GMT -5
It would be very un-recoverylike for me to have that expectation |
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:53:36 GMT -5
I feel bad leaving you all by yourself.
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 15:54:57 GMT -5
Oh I see there are other visitors now. So I don't feel bad anymore. See you guys later after my meeting.
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Post by astro on Jul 7, 2009 15:55:12 GMT -5
I feel bad for saying that I'd ditch you in a heartbeat if I could leave the office and go to a meeting  j/k! ;D |
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 17:56:35 GMT -5
I feel bad for saying that I'd ditch you in a heartbeat if I could leave the office and go to a meeting j/k! ;D That really wasn't nice Astro  |
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Post by dee74 on Jul 7, 2009 18:00:01 GMT -5
How did your meeting go Bee? D ps Astro is very nice - nicer than me even. |
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 18:04:27 GMT -5
Meeting was good as usual, don't think I've been to too many bad ones, just bad people at some, but its principles not personalities, right.
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 18:05:53 GMT -5
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Post by dee74 on Jul 7, 2009 18:07:49 GMT -5
cool smilies Bee  D |
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Post by believe808 on Jul 7, 2009 18:08:54 GMT -5
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Hello, my friends! 
